September 2010
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Au revoir?
Today I lost a very dear friend, one who has been a part of my life for over four years now. Short though it may be, he has seen me through so many highs and lows, and despite my occasional conniption fits and physical abuse, he has never threatened to leave my side. He was a strong one, very well-endowed, and I honestly loved him for everything he was.
In return I have always been faithful,...
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the manic street preacher
A few days ago I was waiting to meet someone outside the Central Bank of Ireland and there was this man, he was pacing the pavements in his bare feet and had some garda (police) crime scene tape wrapped around his head, plus he was yelling at a bunch of strangers so my first impression of him was that he was daft, a Jesus freak or a panhandler at least, the kind you usually avoid eye contact with....
August 2010
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Hello how do you do!
So I’m back from my holiday and I’ve surely missed a lot of your wonderful writings, but I will be sure to check my dashboard regularly from now on and post some newer content. That is all. Goodnight lovelies! :-)
July 2010
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solitaire
I must admit that even the strongest amongst us have weaknesses. We are susceptible to vacillating moods, sinful temptations and enslaving habits. I’ve come to realise that in times of conflict and defeat, we need a source of strength beyond ourselves. There is always an available source where we can draw it from.
busy
The initial numbness upon returning to the Philippines has evaporated and I’ve been slapped with the emotional burden that has been suspending from the ceiling, waiting for me to come back and then bury me under itself. I have to admit it doesn’t affect me as much anymore, but argh, it’s so bloody annoying I almost wish I didn’t have a heart to feel anything. Numbness is supposed to be a defence...
June 2010
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Bright Eyes - If the Brakeman Turns My Way
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still alive, but I have a good reason to die today
(Please don’t tell me if you do not care. My ego is frail.)
There’s that fateful day when you turn 20. You’re not really that cool with the rest of the twenty-somethings because you haven’t yet earned the ‘something’, so anyone “above” you is still entitled to mistake you for a kid, yet many are willing to accept you and test your potential, and any...
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Write one leaf about the term "holier than thou."
(via writeoneleaf)
I don’t think some people realise how potentially offensive it can be to tell a person (let’s call this gay friend of mine Mr X) to change his sexuality — even though Mr X is totally comfortable in his own skin — because other people aren’t. Why should anyone think that Mr X has an obligation to give a rat’s arse and justify his sexuality? Then again I’d been diagnosed with...
May 2010
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vacation: philippines
Exactly one month from now I’ll be leaving for the Philippines for two months, and because I want to absorb every molecule of multiple award-winning service that Koninklijke Luchtvaart Maatschappij (KLM) provides, I need to stay awake for the whole duration of my long haul flight.
I remember telling my dad that I wanted to be a stewardess and he told me that, first of all, I should undergo...
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Alexis onfire - Rough Hands
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I fell in love with a poster once.
The dude in it wasn’t even real to begin with; he was just some manga creation that some girl pulled out of her sphincter. Back then I used to watch a little anime and had a thing for shōnen characters with very dark and long badass hair. Whenever I walked into that shopping arcade and went up the stairs, I’d intentionally pass by that poster sticking against the clear glass window of...
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Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Modern Romance
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plasterboard
I came home yesterday with a ton of plasterboard and some construction materials in my veranda. At first it seemed that some mysterious benefactor had just dropped off a bunch of paintings, but when I lifted off the plastic coverings all I found were humongous pieces of plasterboard, wooden panels, metal rails, and a bucket of some — I don’t even know what they’re called. Man, I...
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today has been both magical and tragic
C’est la vie, I guess. It’s a harrowing beauty. I spoke to a friend tonight about the leaps of faith you take in life, and he said that for someone who’s so carefree I continually close myself off to one of life’s most major experiences. No surprises about what he’s talking about there — the L word. And no, I don’t mean lesbianism. He’s spot on the money. Up until now I preferred fantasy over...
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dear karen
There’s no rush in knowing what love really is. I’m nineteen and even I have no idea what it truly means. By a random stroke of stupidity you looked up ‘love’ in the dictionary and found it to sometimes mean romance, then you flipped the pages further to find that ‘romance’ is associated with love. Apart from having to shop for a brand new dictionary you might want to consider purchasing a new...
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Pavement - Elevate Me Later
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“Sorry — is anyone every really aware of what they’re saying when...”
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Radiohead - Jigsaw Falling Into Place
signs of the times
After a relatively annoying and rather unfortunate occurrence, I was left a defenseless naive teen in the middle of the dense farmlands of Ireland, where I now live being raised by none other than a group of leprechauns. These generous leprechauns helped me expand my knowledge and taught me how to construct houses with shamrocks and pots of gold. Wandering around one afternoon, I suddenly found...
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Anonymous asked: I suppose it is not my place to say anything but someone thinks you are interesting.. so I read and it was disappointing. you are just so full of fluff like many people on here who are looking to feed their egos and need to be seen so badly that they forget to shut up. just letting you know that if you are trying to work towards wisdom or anything real at all you have a very long way to go. You...
doki doki (ドキドキ)
I hope you never have to experience what it’s like to be too tired to sleep. Or too wide awake helplessly trying to fill the void of silence with quiet words, with a swirl of thoughts. We sit here like an old couple by the nightstand, facing each other with our toes curled together underneath the quilt. The banging of keys and the rustle from the turning of crisp pages are amongst the only noises...
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Broken Social Scene - 7/4 (Shoreline)
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The Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm
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Psapp - This Way
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cow flatulence
The other night I dreamt that when I glanced out my bedroom window there was a river. For some reason it was exceptionally wide and I remember classifying it as a braided stream with mid-channel bars colonised by vegetation. I marveled at it in amazement for a good while, until it started morphing into miles and miles of barren desert. I didn’t think it was particularly strange, however,...
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pregnancy
My boyfrend got me pregnant and left me. Even my parents disowned me, and it doesn’t help that abortion is illegal in Ireland, unless the doctor reckons that my health is in grave danger. My incredibly reliable friends gave me funny looks when I spilled the beans and now they act all stupid around me. So here I am with a three-month bump of a so-called love child whose dad will never see....
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Spoon - Black Like Me
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Bright Eyes - Drunk Kid Catholic
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of hot men and economics
One of my primary sources of entertainment when I'm in the college is of a private joke betwen my occasionally gay friend, Darren, and I, namely his habit of chucking things away in the dumpster once the economic profit generated from them drops down to zero. Between the two of us there can only be a balanced sense of humanity if you take the average between his detached pragmatism and my slight tinge of melodramatic romanticism. Also, conversations with him about men usually mean him advocating prostitution and it goes like this:
Me: Well, of course, I'd never marry someone born with a face made for derision. (Said in jest.)
Darren: Good to know you're aware that it's a lot more profitable to marry a hot, young man, because if things don't work out you can always pimp him off for massive amounts of cash!
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about a boy
It begins with a suppressed giggle, but you have a most uncanny ability to make it snowball, and it frustrates me on an epic scale when I’m helplessly and unglamorously cackling away to our private jokes. They never fail to bring forth an irrepressible urge to stab myself with the sharpest object within my arm’s reach that I could ram myself with, just to put a halt to my otherwise...
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T. Rex - Mambo Sun
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one of the things that make me sad: having no...
There are times when people need a willing ear that would listen to them, even when they refuse to admit it and brush it off as just flapping their gums. They might reek a little of ethanol, or perhaps they did a few lines of cocaine in the bus station loo before hopping on the bus, but it’s no skin off my nose to simply have a conversation with them. Instinct will either tell me to walk...
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Rodrigo Y Gabriela - Vikingman
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Massive Attack - Inertia Creeps
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barney
It was immaculately white. We were seated in neat rows of ivory tables, sitting for an English essay paper with ten questions to choose from, kind of like those mock exams we had in school in the past. Except that this one was a wee bit different: If I didn’t ace the paper, I would somehow wither within a few hours of completing it and disappear completely off the face of the Earth.
The clock’s...
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questionable indeed
According to Japanese numerology I’ll spend the rest of my life giving more than I receive. That may be so, but there has got to be more people out there who - and who will - appreciate me for something I’ve done, however small, and that would be enough. I suppose I don’t mind giving, because most times I don’t really expect anything in return. The truth of the matter is I...